“Let Her Go”

First and foremost, I was lucky – damn lucky to have you (!!) though not for a very long time…

To be honest, you’re not the prettiest nor cutest and such. But surely you’re sweetest girl I’ve ever met!!

– You flew here to meet me immediately after I said I was in trouble..

– You cooked, packed and sent it here for me to try..

– You travelled far away just to accommodate me home & surprised me with our delicious home food

– You did it again without me noticing

– You passed what your mom sent you to me just because “you may not have enough” & “it’s nicer”

– You made my best birthday gift ever!! & I happened to receive it at the midnight of the day though it was in my house for a few days. What a surprise! What a coincidence! You would never know how happy I was! I still keep the gift wrapper till now 🙂

– then You always bought my mom gifts & helped me bought her flowers..

… OMG!
I still wonder how those sweetest things could come to me… As I said, “girls are jealous of what I receive & guys are simply jealous of me”!

I don’t know.. I still don’t know why…

Maybe I’m handsome
Maybe I’m smart
Maybe I’m funny
Maybe I’m sweet
Maybe my background..
Maybe my future..

hi`hi`. I’ve just tried to put some jokes here to ease the sadness of this article. I know for sure you didn’t care all of those things. It was just not You.

That’s why I know I was lucky…
But….

Perhaps after what you had done for me, I probably took you for granted. I admitted I did. But it was not the decisive moments. It was long long after that. And I’m experienced enough to know what was going on & appreciate what came to me.

Perhaps we came to each other at the wrong time. It was a pretty tough period for me. I couldn’t do anything for a month or two. It was the toughest days… Having said that, tough periods also led to great opportunities. As I said, we had chances, in fact, a lot of chances but we couldn’t seize it…

Perhaps you’re too sensitive…

Perhaps.

Perhaps..

Perhaps…

Don’t get me wrong. I don’t blame it all to you. I was a part of that…

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Despite all other differences, we all love to travel & we did travel together quite a lot of times. Almost all were memorable <3

Now I let you go with a hope that “If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you (without you having to plead and beg), its yours forever. If it doesn’t, then it was never meant to be.”

That saying was right partially – not all. So it’s a hard decision anyway but I’m willing to make it as a man.
I don’t wanna keep you beside for nothing.
I don’t wanna give you much of an vain hope.
I don’t wanna fool you with sweet yet empty words & stuff.
I don’t wanna cheat on you.
I don’t want you to be just as a back-up…

I’m a man and at least that means something.

With all my due confidence & optimism, I still don’t know if I could find someone like you – as sweet as you & particularly love me as much as You do. I know You still do..

I don’t wanna say too much loving (& weak) stuff..
I hope You will stay strong & keep moving forward! Time will show & answer everything.
Now I know one thing for sure that you deserve more than this!

Love!

zzz: if time allows, i will write more…!

If only you said Yes to a few things that you rejected me, things would have gone differently…

Trang & Ngọc

Ngọc nào mà Ngọc chẳng sáng
Trăng nào mà Trăng* chẳng tự ngắm mình!
Đẹp là đẹp thế đó đấy,
như Trang như Ngọc như Hiền như Chi.

12.30am dec 02

Đẹp đến thế nào rồi nhìn hoài cũng chán, cũng biết là vậy, nhưng vẫn cứ phải nhìn!

* sun dec 01

Comparison

Once either one starts to compare, the relationship is on the verge of the end.

girls in relationship!?

First and foremost, I’m not interested in girls in relationship at all.

Good friends? Maybe. But definitely nothing more than that. Leaving their boyfriends for someone better (richer, more handsome, whatever it is) is apparently & generally not a wise choice for girls. Personally, I wouldn’t prefer it either (!) even if she leaves someone for me. I believe eventually she’ll leave me for some similar reasons. I’d likely become another fool – just like the “poor” boyfriend she’s just left. Loyalty & trust are vital in any relationships, which don’t show in this case at all.

Girls in relationship are generally good looking (& of course good in other stuff too 😉 . In fact, many look better in relationship than being single. But if you’re looking for a serious and long-term relationship, avoid girls in relationship at all cost! They’re not meant for you. There are still a bunch of other beautiful girls out there.

It’s alright if we meet some “love at first sight” though. But that’s rare and exceptional!

Girls in Relationship?

No. No way.

nt: It’s not so hard to date a girl in relationship. Sometimes it’s even easy if she’s in a bad relationship. But say No or at least wait until she already settles her stuff & promise yourself not to involve anything in her own business.

ps:  Nothing seems less attractive than a man (probably girls – albeit likely not true haha)  in relationship..

An interview with my cousin

Last week, a cousin of mine had come to Singapore with his daughter to visit his son who is studying JC here. Apparently we didn’t have much time to talk but I managed to have a small “interview” with him before he left. My question was short. “You’re now 51 – nearly 30 years older than me. You’ve lived almost 2/3 times of life. What’s your biggest regrets?”

From many others’ points of view, he’s a successful man. He’s got a happy family with a beautiful wife, a son studying abroad and a clever secondary-school daughter. Of course, he’s got a very decent career & a nice house too! His only concern now is to support & raise his children until they’re really mature which he refers to the University entrance.

But surprisingly (or unsurprisingly), he said it’s just the outward appearance. And when it comes to “regrets”, he does have quite a handful:

1. His biggest regret is Health (unsurprising for a man!)

He said he was still in good shape in the early 40s, let alone those early 20s & 30s. But now the consequences of over-drinking & partying while ignoring exercising begin to show up. It’s not so serious, he said. But he can’t drink much now as some diseases & pain starts to affect him. It’s terrible. I hope… he regretted! When we’re young, we all seem to take our health for granted while it’s actually our most important asset. It suddenly reminds me of Dalai Lama’s saying:

2. His second biggest regret is some skills he should have at least known

+ The first one is technology and foreign language as he didn’t know computer nor English at all. It makes me extremely less confident outside of my world – he regretted. When I come here I feel it more obvious than ever, he continues.

It’s followed by sport (football, table tennis, etc.) and art (singing, dancing, playing some musical instruments (guitar, piano, etc.). He doesn’t know how to play anything of those and that made him less “sociable” with friends. I’m friendly and “funny” but that’s all I have. When it came to other things like going karaoke or sport, I was just the “outsider”. But he masters his lessons and compensates for it in his children by providing them his best possible support in learning those extra skills which he claims to be very important apart from studying (knowledge) – and I totally agree with him.

3. The final one is once again unsurprising for me. It’s love (relationships).

He said although he has a wonderful family now, he didn’t have many memories in love and relationships. Some (very beautiful girls) had tried to approach him but he either refused or avoided them. If only I had the courage and right attitude to accept those invitations, he wished, I would have had a chance to know them at the very least. He may seem a bit greedy but I think it’s true. Relationships are utterly important in life.

But he thinks this is also partially a result of the 2 regrets above. If he had had a better health and a few of those skills, he would have very likely attracted many more people…

We finished at nearly 2 am on Friday night… gotta go sleep for our tomorrow work & flight..

Protected: Nothing to be ashamed of

Protected: blame, I take it all!