That was exactly the same my thinking when was I was still an employee. And it was understandable. But now I’m the founder of my own start-up. How come I still freaking hate Monday?
When things went wrong, I hate it!
When things went right, I hate it too, somehow!
Negative thinking.
I can’t stand bad results. “Am I really that bad?”
Good results require better ones in the near future. “How could I slow down that growth?”
I’m afraid to show up tomorrow – with higher responsibility and expectation.
Isn’t it a “strategy of life” where highly successful people hate themselves? Sort of, but not really.
I’m scared!
In a certain way, I kinda hated my own company – the culture & expectations.
Pressure!
A lot of pressure!
Stupid people could somehow succeed. But Startup & Success are really not meant for mentally weak people!
I reached out to my friend for help… And it was better for a while before the fear came back.
I was clueless… And terrified! Of everything!
…
It turns out no one could really help me but myself.
Things started getting better when I confront the fear myself!
I face it!
I let it go.
When things get tough, I will get tougher. When things go well, I’m grateful that it works. I have a good faith it will just get better and better tomorrow.